I find myself enjoying a lot of free time to spend with
whatever, while my friends cram for the MLE’s. (Goodluck blockmates! Sa mga
nagtataka, and this may come as a shocker I know so I’m officially announcing
it, I’m skipping MLE’s altogether na to make way for more family time, our
business, and more vacay of course!) I
recently left my job so I could go vacay again soon, and skipped a week of
cardio workout to nurse a bad lower back and weak respiratory tract. I have
been keeping myself busy of late with my 15 weeker 22 pounder very demanding –
demanding lots of hugs and kisses! Cutie kasi eh hehe! - baby Mylo, cooking
dinner (some task my mom forced me into kasi I’m a terrible cook daw), spending
warm afternoons having tea and cakes with friends, watching happyslip videos
and laughing, and of course browsing blogs. I have been trying to transfer to a
more extensive blogsite so I could include ‘feel good’ pictures with my posts,
but am halfhearted about leaving my friendster blog fanbase (naks feeling! Pero
sorry, no more messaging muna please). So, dito muna sa friendster if I’m not
writing/doodling in some page of journal.

     Some blogs would talk about love lost, or hang ups from a
lost relationship, or relationships without closure under the guise of
anonymity – anonymity under the pronoun ‘HIM” or “HER”. Relationships whether
romantic or just plain friendship, would always be a part of girl talk – I am
always guilty of this too. It’s part of being a girl – trying to crack people’s
way of thinking by trying to put herself in his/her shoes, not realizing that,
you know, each individual’s belief or manner of thinking, for that matter, is a
summation of how he/she was brought up. Therefore, in conclusion to everything
I have been saying from the start of this blog, each individual’s mind is
simply uncrackable. Thus, we (especially my friend cristina, and my blockmates
too namely Pampie and Robin!!) would always end up doing role playings in our
conversations and just have a good time laughing our hearts out pretending we
are the certain “HIM or “HER”.

 Relationships come and go. Some stay for keeps, while others
may come by, make you feel good, but may not stay long. It’s an accepted fact.
Some friendships may kick off well but only to end with a bitter taste in your
mouth. It could be from betrayal, dishonesty, envy, or some nasty girl
competition that I could not and would not even try to comprehend. It’s
perfectly normal and part of life we have to deal. People may come into your
life in different packages – some nicely wrapped in pretty packages, but empty
inside, some not as nicely wrapped but is a true gemstone within, some, if
you’re lucky, are true gemstones in best packages…and these people, as I would
often refer to in my previous posts, are my soulmates; and I always believe
that soulmates transcended through past lives to try to work a relationship
with the present one. I have a thing with soulmates – it is a connection that
you do not try to start cracking – you just feel. And these people, you know
are for keeps.

     I live in an idealistic world where happiness means true joy
of the heart; where love is shared with family and friends and my baby of
course (baka maghunger strike again if hindi siya kasali), where afternoon tea
is spent with a warm, feel good smile that would last long after we’ve (usually
this one with cristina talaga…db cristina?) parted, and where dealings with strangers are not of mind games and
manipulations but of trying to find a true connection. I refuse to accept the
fact that life is not as simple as yes or no. I am not as jaded as I thought I
was. Stupid as I think I am, the corrupt world hasn’t touchbased with my soul.

     As I deducted another year from my timeline yesterday –
another less year to live, I thought it would bring me a year closer to my next
life beyond this present one that I am living in. As I was driving to Gourmand
to have my birthday dinner with my favorite companion cristina, I couldn’t fight
the urge to look back (it has been a habit of mine to try to look back at the
exact date last year) at all the good things that has happened to me from the
time I celebrated my previous birthday to yesterday. I have met a lot of people
that really touched my heart deep, helped me grow as a person, and helped me
breeze through my struggle to get my life back – my life that I left when I
decided to take up medicine that is.  While
my life may not be a perfect one, it is as close to perfect as I wanted it to
be.

     My blog/friendster is always a dedication to my friends, my
family, and everyone who wants to feel good while visiting my friendster site.
This particular blog I dedicate to my family – my sister Karen in New York whom
I miss a lot, my baby Mylo (I have yet to share something about him para hindi
maghunger strike ulit), my friends and people closest to my heart next to my
sisters – kyla and cristina, my blockmates vany, paulette, pampie, robin, mommy
apple, rhiz!!! Naku miss na kita rhiz!, james, and will (what’s up with you na?!?!),
Manggy who’s so tiaga to post a comment on my blog, mga blog readers who would
always send me messages kasi ayaw magcomment (sorry, I have to turn my
messaging off kasi madami nang magulo), people who greeted me on my birthday –
thank you so much I really appreciated the texts and calls, Eric who greeted me
first, thanks so much, and my HS friends (sorry I know I’m in hiding again).
Lots of love to all of you (now I feel like a movie star haha! Thanking everyone
sa blog). Thanks for reading!